Okay, so i'm venting my feelings again.
This is from my perspective.
This might hurt.
Or maybe not at all.


I just feel like you don't care much about me anymore.
Like you can forget everything in just this few days.
Idk maybe it hurts you alot too, but i just don't feel it.
You say you understand how i'm feeling but i really doubt so.
Your replies are often cold, and are like always trying to end the conversation.
Are you really that busy most of the time?
Am i not important to you anymore?
Maybe i just don't understand your current situation, or how you actually feel.
You say love is selfish.
But i feel like i'm the only one giving.
What has he even done to deserve your love?
I sometimes feel like i don't mind being you substitute.
I just want to be with you, or talk to you sometimes.
I wish that maybe if you would gradually forget him while you were with me.
But i know i'm just lying to myself.
You might have hurt me, but i still love you.
I'm not asking anything in return.

I know i sound selfish.
Maybe i am.
Maybe you're feeling that i just can't let go.
Maybe i just can't let go.
Maybe you meant all of your words, and the present.
Maybe you didn't.

That was the best present i ever got.
And none of it matters now.
It hasn't even been a week and you have to tell me all this.

Have you really thought this out before you gave me your answer?
Have you really considered how you actually feel about me?
Have you really thought of how i'm feeling now?

Its like you just took a knife and stabbed it in my heart.
And you left it there.

I'm not writing this to make you feel sorry, sad or angry.
I just can't take it anymore.
I need you.

This is how i really feel right now.

But what i said on Thursday night was really how i felt at that time.
I really felt happy then.

I would gladly let go.
But i just can't.
I just want to be your iPod forever.
But i feel like that batteries in it has died.

I'm sorry.
I really am.