sigh, i'm confused again.
but this time, its about you.
i don't quite get you.

what you're telling me is conflicting.

but as you said, love is selfish.
i can't help but love you.
they just fade away and come back in the morning.

i won't force myself to let them go.
i will let them go as time passes.

why can't i wake up and get an sms from you,
telling me that this was all a dream...

i hate fridays and weekends.
i feel alone.

always loneliness.

how do you adapt to the change?
a day after and everything changes.
you feel guilt.
i feel hurt.

won't ever get into a relationship.
then what was that we shared?
nothing?

so everything you say is empty?
why?

then why do you like him?
when you're so hard to please.

did i really do all this for nothing?
was there really nothing all this time?
i didn't even prove anything?
am i that useless?
nothing?

running away doesn't help.
my mind is in a fog now.

why am i so attached to you?
its because of what you say.
you loved me then.
but you didn't at the same time.

i really felt that you loved me.
for who i am.
not as a sub.

but i don't mind being the sub.
if you are happy.
and if i can be that distraction.