innermost feelings.

i'm content with how things are now.
just being friends.
but knowing there's another step higher,
its making me feel incomplete.

i wished i had another chance.
another chance to steal your heart.
another chance for everything.

i still remeber that absurd task you gave me.
1 week.
to prove it.
i thought i couldn't do it.
but i did it.
in 2 days too.
thats when you said ily to me for the first time.

i'm felt that it was just for me.
maybe it was.

i'm sure i have changed your life in some way.
just like you did.
you gave me the encouragement to study.
you gave me the will to train harder.
you gave me the chance to change myself.

i was your first everything.
and also the last.

of course i respect your decision.
its how you feel.
but staying that way isn't going to help much.
i think.

maybe i should give myself some time.
to think about this more.

its alright for things to stay the way they are now.
this is just a wish.
but, two is better than one, right?

i still love you somehow.
not more than a lover.
not less than a friend.

i mean my heart doesn't thump like it did when you walk by.
but i can make it do so.

i love, and don't at the same time.
i would willingly give it another try.
if you would.

maybe it still wouldn't work out.

i don't regret anything.
except that i didn't cherish those moments with you.