well, i guess most of you may not know.
but there's two sides to me.

one, the friendlier, happy, outgoing and weird guy that you all have seen.

two, the sad, lonely, depressed outcast that i am when i'm all alone.

the alternate me, which just comes out when nobody i know is with me,
or sometimes, when i'm at home.
thats when i'm always carrying that :/ face all the time.
thats when i think of all the memories i've had.
thats when i turn pessimistic, and write all these stuff.

of course, both of these personalities do help in some way, good or bad.
the friendlier side of me helps me communicate with others.
the lonely side of me helps me think of all the negative things i have done, or have not.

i just feel like i'm lying to myself all the time.
acting happy when i'm not.
maybe i am, but i just don't think i am.

i think i'm nothing without you all.
so, talk to me more :D
it really can make my day.