Honestly right now if anyone were to ask me what feelings I still have for you, I would say there is none alrights (: But well nobody seems to believe me because of your constant recurrence in almost everything that I post online, maybe I should doubt myself about myself.

Okay I shall be as truthful as I can in this post.
The only, only reason I didn't want to let go of you was well, I thought that I could just be someone who's great and all and (-.-) just wait wait wait and wait until maybe one day you would give me another chance. Ofc I've come to realise that that would not do any good to anyone, cause its just plain wishful thinking and such. Because no matter how much we want something that's gone, it still won't ever come back. So I've tried here and there to stop thinking or writing anything about you which eventually succeeds after long persuasion of some people. Still the random what if's pop up in my mind every now and then and I just can't help but feel that maybe umm... w/e I don't wanna talk about that. So right now, I've decided to well just stop liking anyone. Since everything just ends in the end. Maybe friendships are better.

And I shall admit that well most of the things I write are coded to well... I don't know. Maybe provoke thought in you. So, I'm sorry for whatever bullshit I ever wrote that probably make you feel uncomfortable or pissed or whatever.