Its the first day of the Chinese New Year and I'm spending it sulking here. Well at least not for long. Anyway. There were just a few things I wanted to say, especially to you.

I don't know where to start.

Okay...

You know last time when you talked to me often at night, and I always had to cheer you up? Yeah that was the first time I noticed that you were heartbroken, honestly I never knew till then. And well during those times you were so vulnerable and depressed, it made me want to care for you and protect you. Because I couldn't bear to see you, someone I truly care about, getting hurt and all. So maybe I just realised I still love you like a friend, but more. Every now and then I would subtly hint you, and you would just ignore me or something.

But yeah, its almost been a year since then. I really, really would want another chance from you, but I don't know how to tell it to you. Cause I know it'll probably harm our friendship or something, and that's something I don't ever want to lose. So I've decided to write it all here, cause even if you chance upon it and decide to ignore me again, I don't mind. Honestly I don't care whether you see it or not, to get it off my chest is already enough for me. Please, I really am serious about all this. Though I'd really appreciate another chance, I know that you probably wouldn't give me another and might hate me for what I'm doing right now... so I won't mind if you pretend you never saw any of this.

I've been thinking if I should ask you.... maybe on valentine's day. But I guess I treasure our friendship more than anything, so I don't think I would ever let those words escape my mouth again..